Whether we carol or weep,
The Sun with his Planets in chime,
Marketh the going of Time.......
As another year comes to a close i reflect upon all that has transpired this year and can cut through all of it to my favorite moment. The day Highlander came home from Iraq ...again. For grace be to God that he once again guided and protected and also in a very real way saved him and me all to bring us back to the place in which we began, and little can compare to coming full circle.
The trip to palm springs has been refreshing and healing and relaxing and above all has been just a nice chance to get away from the daily grind. I have been giving myself permission to take it a bit easy and let go of the reins i hold so tight in day to day life. For everyone can use a rest. Its the ultimate chance to recharge and reflect and regroup.
I truly have big plans for this coming year and am hopeful and ready for all that would come my way.
I am so grateful i was able to see my nieces and my nephew who by the way i have been praying for daily,and i saw people i haven't seen in years, and i know that the one thing that keeps resonating in my life is that we need to love deeply while we have the chance. These moments with others they do not..and they cannot last forever. We have to use the time that we have so wise and with purpose while we are in the moment, i cannot stress that enough. I am uplifted to show up somewhere and feel the love and welcoming that waits for my return based upon the memory of our past time together and the solid post which it forms and upholds and stays no matter how much time has gone by a resounding marker on my life path that shows me the way i have come from and gives me a lighted path every time i choose to walk that way again.
I never stop longing for times when i was closer and more involved and more present but i am comforted and at peace with the monuments that love and loyalty and being true have created in my world.
I am grateful for the chance to live another year to continue my walk with purpose and my heart and mind strengthened by the words for my ear , the signs along my way and the people who come into my fold. Humbled at the immediate examples of cheerful givers and amazing doers of this world.
I continue to be joyful and amazed at every birth of new life, and aware and reflective of all loss i am witness to.
I prepare a space in my heart to recv every task given to me and clear a path in my mind to follow it through to completion.
I do not take for granite that today i woke up with my husband next to me and my children sleeping in the next room, and the day awaiting me.
What a year. What a life. What a chance every day to get up and be me, the person God has created and feel that at least in my heart i am trying to fulfill upon the destiny that is out there for me.
I continue to praise God with everything i am and all that i do, in the knowledge that he is working for me and not against me. In the faith that whatever i am given will never be more than what HE knows i can handle, and the belief and acceptance that my life is not random and i am here for a very very important reason. I continue to pray a prayer i have been praying on for years and hope that this may be the year it is answered.
I also just want to express my true gratitude for all those who love and care for me and my family and who continue to be a light in my life and my path and who know who i really do try to be, which is just me. In all my imperfections and crazy agendas and insane daily schedule at the close of all days i hope i haven't offended anyone , that i loved someone deeply and that somewhere i made a difference.
s.o.t.d.
Then Jesus said unto them, Yet a little while is the light with you. Walk while ye have the light, lest darkness come upon you: for he that walketh in darkness knoweth not whither he goeth.John 12:35
