I believe i just bought a....

HORSE!
She is a beautiful 2 year old AQHA registered filly! She looks to be a great prospect and we may go in several directions with her!
My new investment and a happy one!
Now just have to get her pen all squared away and i should be able to pick her up by the weekend shes bought and paid for and ready to go with her new trainer which is my friend who i will call The Bronx :) from here on out. She is AMAZING and GIFTED with horses and i feel VERY blessed that she is my new partner in this adventure , after all is said and done i think this is going to be a great run :)

S.O.T.D.

James 3:3, 5 "When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal...Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts."

Its like car shopping only worse

Well i have been up to something. 
Over the years i have invested in some interesting and quirky things and so far i have done well. This is going to be by far THE most interesting investment. still looking i am exhausted from the hunt but i think we are getting closer to finding the one. 
I have formed an alliance with a good friend and i a very excited to see where it goes.
Between this new adventure and prepping to open my own business i am so tired i mean i have been burning that candle beyond both ends and then some.
Oh and by the way have i mentioned i have the most amazing husband in the world, who backs me and all my crazy things i come up with....i just hope the Lord takes the reigns on this literally and blesses all that i am about to undertake.
I put my trust in him and know i will never be led astray.
s.ot.d.

I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever. (Psalm 52:8)

Away

And He said to them, "Come away by yourselves to a lonely place and rest a while." 
Mark 6:31

And away i have been. 
Sorry folks but the past 5 weeks have been nothing short of whirlwind. When the plate gets full stuff starts to just fall off, and yeah the blog is always on the edge of the plate...but here we are finally for at least a moment.
I am a mood person, i rarely can force or feign feelings, so if I'm not in the mood to write i just cant. I did write a rather lengthy update the other night and then lost it all in a cyberblip out of sheer irritation i just got up and went to bed never to return until now lol
Pulled in a million directions and yet mostly standing still for the moment life has been keeping me busy.
I have not forgot i am to lose 40 pounds,but until i figure out this hernia gig workouts have come to a slow crawl due to the pain i experience if i overexert anything in my abdomen. I go for hopefully what will be THE last scan later at the end of this month.
Found out today i will be spending a small fortune that could probably feed a third world country on braces for the 2 older kids but hey its only money right....sigh they DO print more every day. That's a relief hehe.
Well i HAVE been up to something, i am about to launch my business The Fairy Party Mother FINALLY!  Its been a long time in the making but i am hopeful that all will work out and that it will be fruitful and fun! Cause you know i needed More things on the plate :)
Highlander is in the field m-f till march then off to train for a month elsewhere and we are STILL awaiting word on weather or not he actually has front row tickets to the show and no its not the greatest one on earth but it is the most redundant ...sigh. 
So much to do not enough hours in the day...i find myself exhausted elated overstimulated and fulfilled in a way that i could never imagine.
I am on my way to being a business owner and that both thrills me and terrifies me. I have no idea why i am doing this, and yes you heard me right, but this idea it came to me and God has placed a certainty in my heart that it is without question going to be a success, that he is going to drive it into prosperity , and bring me to a place in my life that i want which is to be able to have the funds i need to carry out the personal acts of charity and help that i so very much want to be able to give. 
Yes i know totally bizarre.
I want to work
so that i can give more away
I really am that off in the head hehe
I live to be moved by things
to feel deeply
on levels that at times practically rip my heart out
but it IS my purpose
When you carry the cross at the center of your life it defines your actions, it brings clarity and focus purpose and meaning to all actions and in actions.
Because sometimes the things we don't do are just as important as the things we DO .
Things happen to me. people cross my path,ideas appear in my head,directions are spoken to me as if someone left a message on my voice mail...
I get tired.
Sometimes...
and then i sleep and i am anew well OK i sleep drink coffee when i wake THEN i am anew
where am i going with all this
who knows
wait ok
its obedience. its about simple obedience. 
For a strong personality that can be about as easy as trigonometry
and well that's exactly why you need to do it.
I do what i am told and it leads me to great and wondrous and sometimes ridiculous paths that sustain and create the sum of my life.
Thank you heavenly father for writing an adventure when you penned my days.
s.o.t.d.
Psalm 48:1 "Great is the LORD, and most worthy of praise

TCB

I don't know why but i just have so much stuff running through my mind, things i need to organize, things i need to take care of and ideas that need to be hatched. Maybe when i "get away " i have more time than i normally do to think about lots of things and get clarity and get straight. Cause i come home with a renewed sense of taking care of business. TCB. !

  I  just praise God that he gave me this heart and this will and i struggle sometimes cause i feel exhausted but i know how lucky i am to have the gift of being able to push myself.

  I also set some really big goals and i have all confidence i will reach them if i do what is required of me and do not detour :)

 My life is borderline insane already with all that i do and yet i cannot tear myself away from what i feel I'm being called to do.

One thing that has come to me is so bizarre and out of the blue it will require at some point its own blog or maybe 2. But who am i to question, in all truth i think God is brilliant because he sends the really out there missions to those who are crazy enough to answer the call. :)

As tired as i am i am also very happy to have such a full plate , i don't know what i would do without it all in a way. 

s.o.t.d.

"Behold, the former things are come to pass, and new things do I declare: before they spring forth I tell you of them. "Isaiah 42.9

The quest

Its the edge
of the world
and i know it

so well like it was my own hand that emerges to say wait

for the swell 

that will turn the tide of my life

and 

brings me back to the heart of focus

and the purpose of why the quest goes on

s.o.t.d.

1 Cor 4:5
5 Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord come, who both will bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and will make manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then shall every man have praise of God