Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Write something deep
“We were promised sufferings. They were part of the program. We were even told, ''Blessed are they that mourn.''” (cs lewis)
Nothing about this life is easy. As far as i am concerned everything is an iceberg and we on most days see only the tip.
I want to scream out to the sky with a heart full of praise even though my knees struggling today to stand straight.
And i know
that you are looking for somebody like me. someone just like me.
Test for echo echo echo.
You said to write something deep.
ok
If i went to the ends of the earth and helped every person i know, none of it would matter because i cant help her.
And
I know this
but the heart wants what it wants right.
Right.
You always won everytime you placed a bet
You're still damn good
No one's gotten to you yet
Everytime they were sure they had you caught
You were quicker than they thought
You'd just turn your back and walk " (Bob Seger)
Well signing off but with praise to the Lord that he made me with the strongest shoulders on the block.
Goodnight
S.O.T.D. "We are assured and know that (God being a partner in their labor), all things work together and are (fitting into a plan) for good to and for those who love God and are called according to (His) design and purpose. Romans 8:28
Friday, August 27, 2010
The scone obsession and the sensory overload snapshot
Flint Lockwood: [narrating] Have you ever felt like you were a little bit different? Like you had some unique to offer the world, if you could just get people to see it. Then you know exactly how it felt to be me. (cloudy with a chance of meatballs)
My scone obsession began when i was about 9. We were traveling to anaheim to go to disneyland and we stopped in the middle of the night at a donut shop. Well long story short there were no donuts left only scones. some filled with bits of stuff and some plain. My parents were annoyed but starving they bought them. While i listened to them complain about the scones and how "WHO" eats scones...why have scones at a donut place blah blah i was happily eating my scone silently noting that it tasted like one of the greatest things i had ever ate. I couldnt wait to grow up and leave donuts behind for scones! lol Funny story but its really true. So now i am happy to bake my own and share them with my scottish highlander that i happened to marry :). Cant wait till we take our trip to scottland someday i just know its going to be amazing and i bet they have the best scones ever there lol.
My son has had a rough last 2 days ...his erratic sleep and my insommia , dealing with the EFMP weirdos , highlanders busy work schedule that has overtaken even when he comes home, first week of school blah. After dropping the kids at school this morning he launched into a hysterical crying jag because he cant stand to see them go. It shot my nerves and made me feel on overload as i drove. His bad moments grow fewer as the days go on but the problem lies in not knowing what will set him off. My heart goes out to my son because i can see that he is frustrated with himself. He has things he wants to say but the sentance structure wont come on command he must think about what he wants to say and well when he is mad like most humans i know he doesnt take time to think he just acts and in his case he screams. Something as minor as a tag on a shirt irritating his skin can cause a meltdown and it will take me a few minutes to figure out what is wrong. I have been buying new and engaging toys as we make the switch out from more babylike stuff to bigger thinking and learning toys as well as sensory intergration items and toys that help him. My littlest angel , i love him so much , to him i owe the only patience in the world i posses. His smile alone could light the whole world.
I have so many plans for this weekend. Highlander is going to help me reupholster a bench i bought years ago when we were stationed at Fort Irwin. I have 2 crafts to do with the kids. I need to clean some more and finish up in the kids rooms and also i want to finish up reading a few books. There is so much more....but who knows what i will actually get to and what i wont.
For as social of a creature as i am i have another side of me that loves my solitude.
I have said it before and ill say it again. To be exceptional if you are at all is to be mostly alone. I really understand this . I really do.
S.O.T.D.
If you love those who love you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount. But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.
—Luke 6:27-35
My scone obsession began when i was about 9. We were traveling to anaheim to go to disneyland and we stopped in the middle of the night at a donut shop. Well long story short there were no donuts left only scones. some filled with bits of stuff and some plain. My parents were annoyed but starving they bought them. While i listened to them complain about the scones and how "WHO" eats scones...why have scones at a donut place blah blah i was happily eating my scone silently noting that it tasted like one of the greatest things i had ever ate. I couldnt wait to grow up and leave donuts behind for scones! lol Funny story but its really true. So now i am happy to bake my own and share them with my scottish highlander that i happened to marry :). Cant wait till we take our trip to scottland someday i just know its going to be amazing and i bet they have the best scones ever there lol.
My son has had a rough last 2 days ...his erratic sleep and my insommia , dealing with the EFMP weirdos , highlanders busy work schedule that has overtaken even when he comes home, first week of school blah. After dropping the kids at school this morning he launched into a hysterical crying jag because he cant stand to see them go. It shot my nerves and made me feel on overload as i drove. His bad moments grow fewer as the days go on but the problem lies in not knowing what will set him off. My heart goes out to my son because i can see that he is frustrated with himself. He has things he wants to say but the sentance structure wont come on command he must think about what he wants to say and well when he is mad like most humans i know he doesnt take time to think he just acts and in his case he screams. Something as minor as a tag on a shirt irritating his skin can cause a meltdown and it will take me a few minutes to figure out what is wrong. I have been buying new and engaging toys as we make the switch out from more babylike stuff to bigger thinking and learning toys as well as sensory intergration items and toys that help him. My littlest angel , i love him so much , to him i owe the only patience in the world i posses. His smile alone could light the whole world.
I have so many plans for this weekend. Highlander is going to help me reupholster a bench i bought years ago when we were stationed at Fort Irwin. I have 2 crafts to do with the kids. I need to clean some more and finish up in the kids rooms and also i want to finish up reading a few books. There is so much more....but who knows what i will actually get to and what i wont.
For as social of a creature as i am i have another side of me that loves my solitude.
I have said it before and ill say it again. To be exceptional if you are at all is to be mostly alone. I really understand this . I really do.
S.O.T.D.
If you love those who love you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount. But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.
—Luke 6:27-35
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Frankly my dear i do give a damn
Two-minute attitude drill: To everyone: You can trust me. I'm committed to excellence. I care about you as a person. EVERY DAY: Do good. Do your best.
What is wrong with people. I had somebody write me a note and in it they playfully mention that my "do gooder" attitude is annoying. That i need to chill with my giveaways and "relax". Not the first time i have had to deal with a mediocre mind and im sure it wont be the last.
Frankly my dear i do give a damn THAT much, i care THAT much and my do gooder attitude is gasp JUST WHO I AM. The problem being that most people DONT know who THEY are. This is me and i live this every day. I dont write things or post things to annoy others i do it to inspire others. Its not a "look at me" thing its a follow me thing.
By the way iv been up since 3 am isnt insomnia a wonderful productive thing :)
Spent our anniversary grilling , baking ,talking, kissing, and just being home. Sitting out on the back porch watching him grill kebobs while my 2 daughters hang on his every word and fawn all over him cause he really is the best....we miss him still even though he is home cause he is gone so much. Siiting in the adirondack chairs talking about our dream to buy a crazy ugly house and fix it up to our perfection. How we are going to name our house as in like actually give it a name, that is where silver springs comes in ........our special day it fell during the middle of the first school week and Mark is up to his eyeballs in busy work for the dumbells AT work so we didnt actually go anywhere but that is ok by me. It was overall relaxing and enjoyable and Mark bought me a kindle! Oh how i love that man of mine :) 10 years dont they go by in a blink.
After dinner i baked 4 loaves of banana bread 2 to keep and 2 to giveaway to friends neighbors...i love that when i bake Highlander will hover near me or sit at his desk (we each have our OWN desk :) talking to me and carefully watching what i do should the chance arrive he might get to lick a beater with leftover batter or sample whatever it is that is coming out of my oven.
I found a adorable little poem to attach to the loaves of bread which i think added the perfect touch.
"A penny for happy thoughts, Grains
that grow and nourish, Leavenings to lift us up, May
friendship ever flourish.".......
I love to bake it heals me, and that is why i love to give because it heals me as well....
We laid in bed talking and we both marvelled at how it doesnt even seem like we have been together a decade. Time flies. Tempus ovid as i have tattooed on my shoulder....
Uh oh i am caught my husband is up asking me what i am doing up yet again , but he is smiling shaking his head and now fixing me coffee. Going to have a cup o joe with my love before he goes to the circus.
S.O.T.D.
"But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."
Joshua 24:15
This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me
This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me
And I I'm desperate for you
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Off and running
Fall is here,hear the yell
back to school,ring the bell
brand new shoes,walking blues
climb the fence,books and pens
I can tell that we're going to be friends
Well school is back in session. On one hand i love it because i enjoy having some time with the kids all out of the house but on another note i find myself racing around all day to get things done. Plus i am stepping up my workouts now that i have some kid free moments.
The Rock is doing really well better than i thought. The other 3 are in the right place as well i feel that in every fiber of my being. In the schools honor code it states Harmony school expects the highest degree of personal integrity at all times from all students. PRAISE GOD! If only the rest of the world felt that integrity was that important.
I have been cutting carbs and leaving off the sugar trail at a slow but steady pace as not to fall off the wagon to hard or shock the system. With as much as i enjoy baking i wont be quitting that any time soon as its a stress reliever but i just wont be able to eat my creations like i used too.....
Tomorrow is the big day, our 10 year anniversary. How time flies when your having fun.
The thing that i think people dont understand is our marriage is a combination of blessing hard work and baby dust . We love the Lord we love each other and we love our babies. We also love to work hard for all those we care and love. This has been the glue that keeps us together.....love. We have had some pretty tough times in the past few years , times that have tried our patience and strength but we chose not to let it get the best of us. Make no mistake its a choice. You have to get up every day knowing that and continue to choose love above all else.
My heart stands today a testament to the great love that God put in my life , it is still beating for my husband stronger than ever. He takes my breath away on a daily basis for so many many reasons......i feel saved and strong by what we have and i cant wait to see where the next 10 years leads us to.
As i worked the elliptical machine i could not help but let my mind drift to the whole idea that its almost silly that we pursue happiness through the way our body looks. Our body will fail us , so while your at it try to perfect your heart as well.
Cause the day will come when wrinkled and old nobody will care anymore how many crunches they completed , they will be wishing they read more bedtime stories to their children. I think physical fitness and losing weight is great and i am trying to see this off to the 40 pounds iv been asked to lose. But as i have prayed on this more has been revealed to me. And that revelation is that we are a society of extreme. Woman who are killing themselves in the name of a size 2 jeans. Your self worth should not come in only a size 2. There is a happy medium. slow and steady wins the race. I am not going to deny myself dessert i just cant have it every night. Sometimes you have to stand as a rock among all the water, letting it divide around you parting and passing , but not dividing you.
I am so tired tonight , whoever said excercise gives you
more energy doesnt live on my planet. :)
Round
is the world
long fingers reaching out
trying to grasp on
to anything
that means
something
To feel
just to feel
Wanted to play piano
but instead
became a composer
for love
goodnight and sleep tight tonight.
S.O.T.D. Better a poor man who lives with integrity than a rich man who distorts right and wrong (Prov. 28:6).
Saturday, August 21, 2010
A beautiful mind
Tyler Durden: I want you to hit me as hard as you can. FIGHT CLUB
Well it has been a insane week, one filled to the brim with errands school undertakings bouts of my incurable insomnia...
SIGH
It never ends all the days run into nights and before i know it a week has gone by. I have a feeling when im 76 that is what ill be saying only in regards to years just zipping by.
My head is swimming in thoughts ideas prayers mantras and echoes that talk to me all day and all night long.
Dont worry its not exactly voices and im not nuts.....yet.
I am on overload and yet i know no other way to be.
Today Highlander cleaned my house and i could of cried at his thouroghness, the baseboards the methodic way he vaccumns. Ill never be that good. Never. Something about my eyes sweeping over the clean, the organization, the sanity i see in a spot free mirror in the bathroom...i can hardley stand the feeling of euphoria ...
It doesnt last long i assure you, with 4 kids a few hours at the max.
As i sit here my mind is far ahead of me while my body is a fallout. Not motivated not dedicated you whine whine whine ...the drill sgt yells at my eyelids.
Still they are half lit and i havent had a drop to drink and it seems all week i havent had a wisdom to spare.
I am adrift tonight. Had a great date with my love, got a flat tire, rode home in silence as i thought about life.
Sometimes were flush and sometimes were bust.
And life goes on.
I praise you God that when the flat happened the kids were not with us , that made the task of changing to the spare a fairly easy process.
Silver lining found.
Goodnight
s.o.t.d
I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me. —Psalm 3:5
Well it has been a insane week, one filled to the brim with errands school undertakings bouts of my incurable insomnia...
SIGH
It never ends all the days run into nights and before i know it a week has gone by. I have a feeling when im 76 that is what ill be saying only in regards to years just zipping by.
My head is swimming in thoughts ideas prayers mantras and echoes that talk to me all day and all night long.
Dont worry its not exactly voices and im not nuts.....yet.
I am on overload and yet i know no other way to be.
Today Highlander cleaned my house and i could of cried at his thouroghness, the baseboards the methodic way he vaccumns. Ill never be that good. Never. Something about my eyes sweeping over the clean, the organization, the sanity i see in a spot free mirror in the bathroom...i can hardley stand the feeling of euphoria ...
It doesnt last long i assure you, with 4 kids a few hours at the max.
As i sit here my mind is far ahead of me while my body is a fallout. Not motivated not dedicated you whine whine whine ...the drill sgt yells at my eyelids.
Still they are half lit and i havent had a drop to drink and it seems all week i havent had a wisdom to spare.
I am adrift tonight. Had a great date with my love, got a flat tire, rode home in silence as i thought about life.
Sometimes were flush and sometimes were bust.
And life goes on.
I praise you God that when the flat happened the kids were not with us , that made the task of changing to the spare a fairly easy process.
Silver lining found.
Goodnight
s.o.t.d
I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me. —Psalm 3:5
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Gratitude is the memory of the heart. ~Jean Baptiste Massieu, translated from French
I have a odd appriciation for things, i started thinking about it while i was taking a bath, i always think of things to blog about in the bath just like the way the Lord always talks to me when im driving down the road. A moment of somewhat solitude or at least quiet enough i can hear as well as think for a minute lol youll just have to trust me when i say those dont happen often.
I appriciate the blue and red nap mat that i found at Target for $6.99 today just sitting there as if it were waiting for just me, i have searched high and low cause willow has to have one for school this year, not only were they sold out but my cheapskate self was not about to pay 30 bucks online for one, so i had a grateful heart as i picked it up and it was a proper price. A nap mat should not cost more than that.
I love the way 4 ice cubes bring the temprature of my glass of water to refreshing. I love that Maine represents the essence of all that is fall, my favorite season. I adore desserts that carry names that captivate the imagination and make you want to make it simply because it sounds to exciting not too...like blushing apple upside down cake and cherries in the snow, and aloha chiffon cake.
I savor the taste of tri-tip off a grill because it reminds me of my dad and being a kid and having him bbq.
I gravitate toward anything with the number 4 because i know its marks favorite number.
Yeah i know random thoughts .....again.
My life is so busy so crazy right now with fall coming and school ready to begin , hope springs anew that with my new found time ill do something productive, get my 545 project hopping , drop that 40 pounds for the Lord, and maybe organize my garage. :)
One of our good friends is deploying and another coming home soon. A perpetual cycle it seems and one i seem to somewhat mark the passing of time by. Just around the corner my 10th anniversary waits. A decade and counting with the love of my life, and still my heart skips a beat every time he walks in my door.
A grateful heart for that feeling and the way it makes me want to share that with others.............
S.O.T.D
All the ends of the world shall remember and turn unto the LORD: and all the kindreds of the nations shall worship before thee. (Psalms 22:27)
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Drop and give me 40
Lord, soften my heart to Your ways. Cause me always to respond with “Yes, Lord,” and immediate obedience.
Thank you, Lord Jesus for choosing me before the creation of the world and calling me to be your servant. Keep me faithful, not out of duty or guilt, but out of love for you.
I should have probably known something was on the horizen. I really think the Lord likes to send us lots of signs and depending on what its about we either chose to acknowledge or we dont.
It actually started this morning when i made a ultra quick stop at the thrift store looking for a few pop top water bottles for Sage to haul to the skatepark pool etc, as i spotted one for him, another caught my eye, it was black and purple and a good size. I glanced at what the writing said on the side it said "curves" ok no biggie and away i went buying it and not thinking much else about it.
Then as i taxi carted my kids around on the way back from the skatepark , radio blaring kings of leon and all i can hear is the lines "someone like me, someone like me". I stop at the stoplight and clear as day i hear the Lord say" Im asking you to lose 40 pounds it will be an example."
Fear pounds my heart. I say "do i have a time limit?"
The lord says "no"
That was it. I dropped off the friends came home paced in my kitchen, bent over picked up a piece of paper which actually was a fortune out of a fortune cookie from our dinner at china star the other night and it reads "you should be able to undertake and complete anything you desire" and on the back is the "lucky" numbers and yeah you guessed it the number 40 is on there!
Usually i get asked to give something away, or to help somebody, a few times i have been asked to do something very specific but its always been something that is in my nature to do and has never really been something that has shocked me or made me feel well...uncomfortable. I mean i have lost alot of weight in my day so its not like i cant lose weight or dont know how. But if i lose this 40 pounds i will be at a weight that i havent been at since about the 9th grade. So its kind of asking me to do something that is not only not easy but something i havent been able to do before.Well at least not on my own. Lets face it i have it to lose so this is not a erratic request. But its the example part that has me wondering? I mean the best i can guess is that maybe its a example of with God all things are possible. Maybe there are others out there that need to lose weight and seeing me do this will launch them fwd to sucess...who knows im reaching lol.
The thing is as soon as he asked me key word being asked, i started to hear that song crazy playing in my head especially the line that says
"Come on now, who do you
Who do you, who do you, who do you think you are?
Ha ha ha, bless your soul"
I mean really who DO i think i am ? I like to think i have a servants heart, that im ready to answer the call. that i "mean it" when i say im here your servant is listening use me!
If i am that person then i got this. Right?
Mark said you know maybe your not such a crazy choice for this assignment, i mean if the Lord asked me to do this number one it would be unhealthy but then also people would expect me to accomplish this, where with you its obvious you are going to have to work.
Yes as Big Black on Rob n Big always says its time to do work!
SIGH
I have so much going on i seriously was not expecting this AT ALL.
Its not like im going to let the Lord down. I just cant, no, i wont. I cannot praise him enough for all the blessings he has poured out on my life.
Oh somebody get ready to hear me snivel, cause this is going to get tough but the tough get going right? :)
Ill begin tommorow morning. I am waking up to work out and pray . early.
I want to reflect the glory of God in everything i do. Let the things my hand finds to do inspire others so that they may know God IS good.
S.O.T.D
Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might Ecclesiastes 9:10
Monday, August 9, 2010
Move with a purpose
"Everything I do, I do it for you. Anything that might be special in me… is you."
Great Expectations
I love my husband so much, last night all the kids were asleep, sage was off spending the night somewhere, and we just really enjoyed spending time together. I MARVEL at how after 10 years of marriage , 4 kids, 2 dogs , 6 duty stations, and tons of in between moves , deployments , and everything in this universe that conspires to tear us apart that we are still in awe of each other AND together it has not been a easy road. We might move a little slower , but we move with a purpose.
I want the war to end. For good. I want there to be no forces left behind. I have been praying for this for a few weeks. The creator of heaven and earth, he can do this. I believe that.
Its not even so he wont deploy again for that is inevitable if not iraq then afghanistan. But we need a victory here , we need closure. The purpose is long gone now......
S.O.T.D.
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
1 Corinthians 15:57 >>
ps The service we attended on post i will write about later
Great Expectations
I love my husband so much, last night all the kids were asleep, sage was off spending the night somewhere, and we just really enjoyed spending time together. I MARVEL at how after 10 years of marriage , 4 kids, 2 dogs , 6 duty stations, and tons of in between moves , deployments , and everything in this universe that conspires to tear us apart that we are still in awe of each other AND together it has not been a easy road. We might move a little slower , but we move with a purpose.
I want the war to end. For good. I want there to be no forces left behind. I have been praying for this for a few weeks. The creator of heaven and earth, he can do this. I believe that.
Its not even so he wont deploy again for that is inevitable if not iraq then afghanistan. But we need a victory here , we need closure. The purpose is long gone now......
S.O.T.D.
But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
1 Corinthians 15:57 >>
ps The service we attended on post i will write about later
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Love is passion
William Parrish: Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
-Meet Joe Black
I have always identified with the idea that love is passion.
Every day your life is waiting for you to wake up and live in color.
All you have to do is show up.
s.o.t.d.
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
Micah 6:8
-Meet Joe Black
I have always identified with the idea that love is passion.
Every day your life is waiting for you to wake up and live in color.
All you have to do is show up.
s.o.t.d.
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
Micah 6:8
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Time is just something that we assign. You know, past, present, it's just all arbitrary. Most Native Americans, they don't think of time as linear; in time, out of time, I never have enough time, circular time, the Stevens wheel. All moments are happening all the time.
So the training schedule is out sent in a email with the title "the road to war" or something of that nature but i suppose the title says it all. I sense the stress and have for the past few days, its not like we didnt know but i guess now we know know. (sigh)...Tapping foot, drinking coffee, tapping foot some more , mind walking in circles till like a dog chasing its tail will eventually just stop. Oh what will i do..
Marks quote well its actually a mormon scripture but a very good one "oh be wise what more can i say" yes be wise , do wise things with my time , enjoy my time, trust in the plan and know its a good one. Be wise. Lean not on my own understanding.
So the mexican nationals were at my door at 6 am waiting to look at shoes and furniture, and i had my yard sale and it was alot of work, i sold alot , gave away alot more, and set aside half the profits for a big project i want to launch for the holiday season. Its going to be my biggest most ambitous idea yet and its going to require help. I hope people will get on board and wont think iv gone overboard.
After the sale we went out to eat and ran to get yet another pair of shoes for my skateboarding son who wears out a pair of shoes about every 2 months if not sooner, and then outside play, baths, and a movie, laid out church clothes, and responded to emails etc. The day is done.
Let me give praise to you Lord that tonight i go to sleep with my kids , my husband , my dogs , all under one roof , safe and sound and healthy, and that is the greatest peace i could ask for.
Im attending a new church service on post tommorow for the first time and i hope it is a better fit for our family than where we are currently attending. It had to be done not that our church was bad but the kids were not able to attend age appropriate classes and i really want sage and winter to have that and meet other kids who they can come together in fellowship with. Ill probably never get over crossroads at Fort Benning , ill probably spend the rest of my life looking for another Sarah seeking me out with a smile :) but as i have learned we can never step into the same river twice.
In other news my son is turning 13 this week, where has the time gone he was just born yesterday. I can remember pushing him in the buggy at Target when he was about 6 months old and knocking over an endcap of stuff because i was so in love with his little face he was all i could look at , everything else was in the way :) I still love looking at his face and i cant wait to see where this life takes him.
Goodnight all.
S.O.T.D.
I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1 & 2
So the training schedule is out sent in a email with the title "the road to war" or something of that nature but i suppose the title says it all. I sense the stress and have for the past few days, its not like we didnt know but i guess now we know know. (sigh)...Tapping foot, drinking coffee, tapping foot some more , mind walking in circles till like a dog chasing its tail will eventually just stop. Oh what will i do..
Marks quote well its actually a mormon scripture but a very good one "oh be wise what more can i say" yes be wise , do wise things with my time , enjoy my time, trust in the plan and know its a good one. Be wise. Lean not on my own understanding.
So the mexican nationals were at my door at 6 am waiting to look at shoes and furniture, and i had my yard sale and it was alot of work, i sold alot , gave away alot more, and set aside half the profits for a big project i want to launch for the holiday season. Its going to be my biggest most ambitous idea yet and its going to require help. I hope people will get on board and wont think iv gone overboard.
After the sale we went out to eat and ran to get yet another pair of shoes for my skateboarding son who wears out a pair of shoes about every 2 months if not sooner, and then outside play, baths, and a movie, laid out church clothes, and responded to emails etc. The day is done.
Let me give praise to you Lord that tonight i go to sleep with my kids , my husband , my dogs , all under one roof , safe and sound and healthy, and that is the greatest peace i could ask for.
Im attending a new church service on post tommorow for the first time and i hope it is a better fit for our family than where we are currently attending. It had to be done not that our church was bad but the kids were not able to attend age appropriate classes and i really want sage and winter to have that and meet other kids who they can come together in fellowship with. Ill probably never get over crossroads at Fort Benning , ill probably spend the rest of my life looking for another Sarah seeking me out with a smile :) but as i have learned we can never step into the same river twice.
In other news my son is turning 13 this week, where has the time gone he was just born yesterday. I can remember pushing him in the buggy at Target when he was about 6 months old and knocking over an endcap of stuff because i was so in love with his little face he was all i could look at , everything else was in the way :) I still love looking at his face and i cant wait to see where this life takes him.
Goodnight all.
S.O.T.D.
I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1 & 2
Thursday, August 5, 2010
The Duggar family vs my endurance
“Enthusiasm is the mother of effort, and without it nothing great was ever achieved.”
I have got to stop watching The Duggar family :) Michelle Duggar is making me look bad.
No seriously have you ever noticed how calm natured she is, how she is focused and yet so angelic mother of all mothers and she never appears to break a sweat.
No Highlander and i marvel at their family with great admiration and awe, we have no idea how they do it but they truly inspire. After ever episode i have a sudden urge to homeschool,pray and bake bread , and mark wants to build us a house with our own fountain soda station yeah! :) I bet her garage has 200 storage boxes filled with polos and khakis and everything is labeled more than once.....oh envy is a terrible thing . lol
Well at the very least its about one of the only things mark can get me to sit long enough for to watch to completion. Its amazing what people can accomplish when they have the Lord in their heart.
Jim Bob must have nerves of steel and earplugs that block out like fort knox.
Ok my husband is eyeballing me to get off here so away i go.
And in true homage to the The Duggar family the S.O.T.D is
Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord!
I have got to stop watching The Duggar family :) Michelle Duggar is making me look bad.
No seriously have you ever noticed how calm natured she is, how she is focused and yet so angelic mother of all mothers and she never appears to break a sweat.
No Highlander and i marvel at their family with great admiration and awe, we have no idea how they do it but they truly inspire. After ever episode i have a sudden urge to homeschool,pray and bake bread , and mark wants to build us a house with our own fountain soda station yeah! :) I bet her garage has 200 storage boxes filled with polos and khakis and everything is labeled more than once.....oh envy is a terrible thing . lol
Well at the very least its about one of the only things mark can get me to sit long enough for to watch to completion. Its amazing what people can accomplish when they have the Lord in their heart.
Jim Bob must have nerves of steel and earplugs that block out like fort knox.
Ok my husband is eyeballing me to get off here so away i go.
And in true homage to the The Duggar family the S.O.T.D is
Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
In this life
Be kinder than necessary,
for everyone you meet is
fighting some kind of battle.
Live simply,
Love generously,
Care deeply,
Speak kindly.......
Leave the rest to God.
Yesterday was spent battling a horrid migraine that switched off and on all day , and today was a blur filled from sunup to sundown with a whole lot of "have to's" including the dentist who must have thought i weighed too much and he helped "lighten" my load by unloading my wallet with some serious punchlines that hit hard things like cavities braces and crowns....oh well its only money right? They print more every day.
There is nothing that compares with the bright shiny smile of a child, well worth whatever cost that comes too....remind me of that when im working at burger king to pay for the shiny :)
How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives...... what people never understand is that submission to God has nothing to do with weakness but it has everything to do with purpose.
The purpose of life is of course a life of purpose.
This past 6 months my personal focus has been to praise God in everything i do, good and bad and that has been very challenging. I think its the ultimate test in our Love of the Lord , in good times and bad, to give the same amount of praise to do this freely like second nature . It has been an interesting experiment and one that i plan to continue. I wake up alot of days and say Hi Lord what can i do for YOU today? And he has never failed to send me on a mission.
Tonight my mission is to say this S.O.T.D.
James 2:14-17 — “What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, ‘Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed,’ but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.
Be kinder than necessary,
for everyone you meet is
fighting some kind of battle.
Live simply,
Love generously,
Care deeply,
Speak kindly.......
Leave the rest to God.
Yesterday was spent battling a horrid migraine that switched off and on all day , and today was a blur filled from sunup to sundown with a whole lot of "have to's" including the dentist who must have thought i weighed too much and he helped "lighten" my load by unloading my wallet with some serious punchlines that hit hard things like cavities braces and crowns....oh well its only money right? They print more every day.
There is nothing that compares with the bright shiny smile of a child, well worth whatever cost that comes too....remind me of that when im working at burger king to pay for the shiny :)
How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives...... what people never understand is that submission to God has nothing to do with weakness but it has everything to do with purpose.
The purpose of life is of course a life of purpose.
This past 6 months my personal focus has been to praise God in everything i do, good and bad and that has been very challenging. I think its the ultimate test in our Love of the Lord , in good times and bad, to give the same amount of praise to do this freely like second nature . It has been an interesting experiment and one that i plan to continue. I wake up alot of days and say Hi Lord what can i do for YOU today? And he has never failed to send me on a mission.
Tonight my mission is to say this S.O.T.D.
James 2:14-17 — “What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, ‘Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed,’ but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Postcards from the edge
"I rarely cry. I save my feelings up inside me like I have something more specific in mind for them.
— Carrie Fisher (Postcards from the Edge)
Been up since 4 am. Another night where my body caves but my mind is still STRAC!
I consider getting a jump on the day , waking up Leslie to go walking in my living room, but then i would get the whole house up and after yesterday i dont know if im ready for the day to begin again yet.
It can never come at you platoon, it hits you with the force of battalion. Several hundred deep and with the force of force.
But....
My back doesnt break. My shoulders wont drop. "He trains my hands for battle, So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze."Psalm 18:34
Ill organize the tupperware. I own 6 cabinets full. I love tupperware , its another of my bizarre organizational obsessions. I love the matching lids, the "collections" and that its virtually indestructible, oh yes and it comes with a lifetime guarentee, so few things in life come with that....and even fewer that will back that guarentee up.
Coming out to the computer, i stepped on a line of green army men, while not quite as painful as a barbie shoe or action figure it sure woke me all the more up. Highlander will be up soon, his alarm will go off, he will get up come out ask me what im doing awake again , get the leopard snuggie off the couch wrap me up in it while im still sitting in my computer chair and start pushing me toward the couch. I love him for loving me. I am grateful that when everything else in the world is on fire, he remains calm as ever.
I often wonder if he has a sixth sense, because within 2.5 seconds of walking in my door he sums up the whole of my day and adjusts his actions accordingly. Considering yesterday was about a 8 on the richter scale, he comes in his voice is a little more tender than usual, he was asking what he could do to help with dinner, sent me to Target for the razors for our shaving experiment (i posted that on facebook) , bathed all the kids while i was out , and kissed me a little more than usual before i finally fell asleep. Dont ask me where i found him cause i dont even know,but i am grateful to God every day that he is mine.
Ok enough with all that Disneyland fluffy stuff. I hear his alarm going off and i better stop now before he comes out reads this and tells me im ruining his reputation again :)
S.O.T.D
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7
— Carrie Fisher (Postcards from the Edge)
Been up since 4 am. Another night where my body caves but my mind is still STRAC!
I consider getting a jump on the day , waking up Leslie to go walking in my living room, but then i would get the whole house up and after yesterday i dont know if im ready for the day to begin again yet.
It can never come at you platoon, it hits you with the force of battalion. Several hundred deep and with the force of force.
But....
My back doesnt break. My shoulders wont drop. "He trains my hands for battle, So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze."Psalm 18:34
Ill organize the tupperware. I own 6 cabinets full. I love tupperware , its another of my bizarre organizational obsessions. I love the matching lids, the "collections" and that its virtually indestructible, oh yes and it comes with a lifetime guarentee, so few things in life come with that....and even fewer that will back that guarentee up.
Coming out to the computer, i stepped on a line of green army men, while not quite as painful as a barbie shoe or action figure it sure woke me all the more up. Highlander will be up soon, his alarm will go off, he will get up come out ask me what im doing awake again , get the leopard snuggie off the couch wrap me up in it while im still sitting in my computer chair and start pushing me toward the couch. I love him for loving me. I am grateful that when everything else in the world is on fire, he remains calm as ever.
I often wonder if he has a sixth sense, because within 2.5 seconds of walking in my door he sums up the whole of my day and adjusts his actions accordingly. Considering yesterday was about a 8 on the richter scale, he comes in his voice is a little more tender than usual, he was asking what he could do to help with dinner, sent me to Target for the razors for our shaving experiment (i posted that on facebook) , bathed all the kids while i was out , and kissed me a little more than usual before i finally fell asleep. Dont ask me where i found him cause i dont even know,but i am grateful to God every day that he is mine.
Ok enough with all that Disneyland fluffy stuff. I hear his alarm going off and i better stop now before he comes out reads this and tells me im ruining his reputation again :)
S.O.T.D
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1:7
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Prosperity and sharing eggrolls
“No man can tell whether he is rich or poor by turning to his checkbook. It is the heart that makes a man rich. He is rich or poor according to what he is, not according to what he has.”
I have been craving eggrolls , but being the cheap bastard that i am i usually pass them up because they are kind of expensive. But i bought a really big box of eggrolls at Sams like 50 of them, which for me would have lasted a long time, Sage and I enjoy making them for special snacks and we both treasure them cause well...i just dont always buy them.
Today we went to the pool kind of a last minute thing and at my suggestion everybody brought finger foods. I made the entire box of eggrolls and enjoyed eating them as did everybody else at the pool. As we left Sage commented wow we ate that whole box in one sitting! I asked him if he was upset that i made them all , and he said no, it was cool you brought eggrolls and i had alot of fun eating them with my friends we were all so happy you brought them.
Quote of the day
Part of our prosperity is our joy, the blessing and wealth we have in our life is not all added in dollars and cents.
Sometimes we are short on dollars but find ourselves rich in eggrolls and friends. I would not trade one for the other. I mean that, i try to live that, and i am trying very hard to share that. God Bless us all this week.
S.O.T.D.
A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.
Proverbs 11:24-25
I have been craving eggrolls , but being the cheap bastard that i am i usually pass them up because they are kind of expensive. But i bought a really big box of eggrolls at Sams like 50 of them, which for me would have lasted a long time, Sage and I enjoy making them for special snacks and we both treasure them cause well...i just dont always buy them.
Today we went to the pool kind of a last minute thing and at my suggestion everybody brought finger foods. I made the entire box of eggrolls and enjoyed eating them as did everybody else at the pool. As we left Sage commented wow we ate that whole box in one sitting! I asked him if he was upset that i made them all , and he said no, it was cool you brought eggrolls and i had alot of fun eating them with my friends we were all so happy you brought them.
Quote of the day
Part of our prosperity is our joy, the blessing and wealth we have in our life is not all added in dollars and cents.
Sometimes we are short on dollars but find ourselves rich in eggrolls and friends. I would not trade one for the other. I mean that, i try to live that, and i am trying very hard to share that. God Bless us all this week.
S.O.T.D.
A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.
Proverbs 11:24-25
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